|Maybe this is stupid
||[Jan. 10th, 2006|08:55 pm]
Do you ever feel like you're wasting your life? Ever since I learnt about death, when I was about 8, I've been scared of it. Now I'm scared of dying without having acheived anything. I don't know the names of my great grandparents, and I don't want it to be like that for me. I want my great grandchildren, great great grandchildren, and all of my descendents to be able to say my name and for them to know that before I left this world I did something worth talking about. I want to acheive something, and have wanted to my whole life. Even if it's not a good thing, if people still talked about me in 100 years time, I'd love that. Well, I'd be dead probably. But if I could die knowing that the future would be like that, then I'd die happy. I don't really know what I want to do though.
I'm not an inventor of technologies or tools, maybe not even concepts, but I write, and when I write I feel like I create emotion, characters and complex situations. Maybe through this I can be remembered. Or maybe I'll declare war and genocide on a particular minority. Whatever, I just want to stop feeling like I'm wasting my life.