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Maybe this is stupid [Jan. 10th, 2006|08:55 pm]
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Do you ever feel like you're wasting your life? Ever since I learnt about death, when I was about 8, I've been scared of it. Now I'm scared of dying without having acheived anything. I don't know the names of my great grandparents, and I don't want it to be like that for me. I want my great grandchildren, great great grandchildren, and all of my descendents to be able to say my name and for them to know that before I left this world I did something worth talking about. I want to acheive something, and have wanted to my whole life. Even if it's not a good thing, if people still talked about me in 100 years time, I'd love that. Well, I'd be dead probably. But if I could die knowing that the future would be like that, then I'd die happy. I don't really know what I want to do though.
I'm not an inventor of technologies or tools, maybe not even concepts, but I write, and when I write I feel like I create emotion, characters and complex situations. Maybe through this I can be remembered. Or maybe I'll declare war and genocide on a particular minority. Whatever, I just want to stop feeling like I'm wasting my life.

[User Picture]From: _eternally_
2006-01-13 07:09 pm (UTC)
Me too. So often when I read your entries you remind myself of me!Except that you're just a little bit crazier and wicked. :)
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[User Picture]From: vorbe
2006-02-07 05:17 am (UTC)
I'm 35% sure I saw you today somewhere near southbank, it was either you or one of the veronicas ;)

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[User Picture]From: 3rdlibra
2006-02-07 09:07 pm (UTC)
AHHHH NO! I HATE THEM SO MUCH! And yes, it was me. I thought I saw you and Gururek as well. You're really hairy.
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[User Picture]From: ame_rox
2006-02-12 01:38 am (UTC)
i only just read this thingie. ohhh . me too. stpeh me tto..:(
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